I love going up to his closet and looking at the teeny tiny clothes hanging there...the darling onesies, the little overalls...and I can't help picturing how absolutely adorable he is going to look in them.
Earlier this evening I was thinking about the morning we found out we were expecting, and this feeling that we are so incredibly blessed overwhelmed me. At that point, I couldn't imagine what being pregnant was going to be like. Now, over 6 months into it, I can't really remember what it was like to not be pregnant. And in about 3 months time, when I'm holding our precious son in my arms, I'm sure I'll be thinking that I can't remember what it was like before Evan. I guess life is like that - it can seem so intimidating, so scary, standing on the precipice of change. You are teetering on the edge, afraid to step forward because you have no clue what lies ahead and you have serious doubts about your ability to handle what is inevitably coming. But once the unknown becomes the "known", you can't imagine going back...and you feel a little silly for being so scared in the first place. Fear of the unknown has always been a huge personal struggle; however, when I think about all the situations that I have been afraid of, reality was never as bad as I had anticipated....the fear has always been the worst part. (And you better believe this pregnant woman is praying hard that trend continues when it comes to labor & delivery!)
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