Thursday, December 23, 2010

And...we have a heartbeat!

In our OB's words, the baby was showing off today :) As soon as that doppler touched my skin we heard a strong heartbeat, loud and clear! I'm convinced there isn't a more beautiful sound in the world. Heard the heartbeat today, enter the 2nd trimester tomorrow...and I am a happy, relieved, content woman. I finally feel like I can allow myself to fully experience the excitement of this miracle that is happening.

When I was in middle school, my youth pastor gave each of us a challenge - memorize the whole of Psalm 139 (thanks PJ!!). I don't know all of his reasons behind choosing that particular psalm, but for this insecure 14 year old it was the most poignant passage of scripture that I could have committed to memory at that time. Ever since then, Psalm 139 has been a source of comfort, encouragement, hope, and security for me. I have constantly revisited those verses over the years, reminding myself of the incredible love of my Heavenly Father. Now Psalm 139 has taken on a whole new meaning. Instead of seeking comfort for myself in that treasured psalm, I now seek comfort in the knowledge that our baby's life is in God's very capable hands. I'm starting to see this psalm through the eyes of a mother, a mother longing to know that all is well with her unborn baby, a mother needing the reminder that the baby she cannot yet see is not unseen by the One who has created him/her.

For You formed my inward parts;
You wove me in my mother's womb.
I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Wonderful are Your works,
And my soul knows it very well.
My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth;
Your eyes have seen my unformed substance;
And in Your book were all written
The days that were ordained for me,
When as yet there was not one of them.
~ Psalm 139:13-16



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